Writing Territories
Fears: wasps, sleep paralysis, drowning, being trapped underground, having to grow up and become an independent adult
Annoyances: misunderstandings, stereotypes, ignorance
Accomplishments: doing well in school, having learned how to play five different instruments (well, somewhat)
Confusions: what makes a person good or bad
Sorrows: building up too much stress; appearing aloof or cold when I'm not trying to be, or look, like that
Dreams: a life that I would be satisfied with (for the most part), lots of travel
Idiosyncrasies: can't stay mad at someone for more than 10 minutes
Risks: skydiving (want), bungee jumping (want)
Beloved possessions: (then) stuffed animals, (now) macbook
Problems: procrastination, indecisiveness, hesitation
Sleep paralysis is absolutely terrifying. I had it almost every night at around 2 am when I was in 7th grade. For those of you who don't know what it is, basically it's a phenomenon where you are half awake and you temporarily can't move, speak, react, or, in my case, breathe. I always had it when I slept on my back. Terror would strike my heart when I would suddenly wake up and couldn't open my eyes or move in any way or even breathe. It would be completely dark and I couldn't even cry out for help. Overcoming dread just crept all over me. It's like the feeling you get when feel like someone's watching you or when you keep looking behind your back when walking down some dark, creepy street. I was never fully awake in school because I couldn't get any sleep. It's been quite a while since I last had sleep paralysis, but I can't even sleep on my back anymore. I simply can't fall asleep unless I'm on my side.
fascinating. I'd heard of this but never the part about not breathing. that is scary. now that you know what's going on, if it happens again will it freak you out?
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